My best friend Marian pointed out the song “King of Anything” by Sara Bareilles. I had heard it on the radio but never really paid attention to the lyrics. When I listened to the song again while reading the lyrics, I loved it! I especially loved the chorus line “Who cares if you disagree, you are not me…” I think everybody needs to remember that from time to time. I definitely need to remind myself of that fact a lot. I worry about what my friends, parents, and even professors will think of my new choices. I dread the question “So, what are you going to do after graduation?” I usually reply with “Well, I’ve got a fun summer job and then I’m looking for other things after that.” The truth is, I have my DREAM summer job that I’m totally excited about! It just doesn’t happen to be exactly in my field of study.
I have worked really hard all my life to excel in school, find a job, and go back to graduate school, without ever taking a break. At this point in my life I see some of my friends settling down, getting married, finding fulltime jobs, buying houses… all that is great. But it’s not what I want for myself right now, if ever. I don’t feel like I’ve fully enjoyed some of my experiences in college and before that. I’ve never been a wild partier. That’s still not who I am, but I do want to cut loose a little bit, relax, slow down, and enjoy my life. I need to live in the present and stop worrying so much about the future. There’s another song I really like right now, too. “What the Hell” by Avril Lavigne. The chorus goes “But honestly, I just need to be a little crazy. All my life I’ve been good, but now I’m thinking what the hell.” So what the hell, I’m going to do what I want to do because it’s my life!